I remember when I was young, my grandmother always said that my hair trotter. The hand is owed, meddlesome, real love is to offend others, until to piss people off. When I was young, I didnt know how to cherish the people who had been around you. When going to school, but also can not say not, when young, always feel that the outside world is good. Chinese new year parents work to go home, let them take me out of work. Of that a moment, I now remember very clearly, my grandpas legs is not convenient, leaning on a crutch, relies on the in door, I sat in the car, the window I didnt shake down. Because this is my first time to go on a long journey, first secondary out of this grew up place, I dont know how to express, except to home friends have a reluctant, home does not feel that a little sadness. Feel every day together for more than 10 years, are tired of...... Grandfather was leaning in the doorway, the car started, but grandpas cry, I think at that time grandpa good hypocritical, feel nothing to cry. The car windows still didnt shake, and I just walked away...... .

To Guangzhou, to the home of the people call, every time can not help but want to cry. I have to admit, I think they, homesick in the grandfather, grandmother, cousin, cousin, cousin, every time I press tone, afraid of their listening out. At that time I still feel cry too hypocritical.

Grandpa likes to eat bamboo shoots, but Grandma doesnt like it. So the time at home, every time I looked at him and eaten, because no one gave him. Just that I saw my mother fried Asparagus, want to learn this dish, plan for the Spring Festival home to Grandpa Lou Yishou, at that time, full of confidence to. When the time comes, will be praised too.

In the past 2 months, it was after the new year with my parents out. I do not want anything, just want to hurry up the Chinese new year, you can go home. So to 5 month, day a phone call, said Grandpa hypertension made, go to the county hospital is not, and go to the city. At that time I heard, I think I cant, I cant stand. Tears all of a sudden out, a few days time is not good to eat, a good sleep, dreams are grandpa. After a few days, my grandfather called himself. The phone over there: his voice is so big, so high...... He said he was okay and he was discharged. I heard you hide in the room crying, this is Xijierti. Mood suddenly much better, it is time to eat and eat, the why do. In the afternoon, my grandmother called to come over, I heard my grandmothers voice desperate, loud crying, and can not hear what is said in the end. My dad sound on a speaker, I heard grandma said a word, not Grandpa, now in the rescue, she said for half an hour, the remaining has said: how to do, how to do?... My
ain blank, standing in situ.

Because in the morning, Grandpa said he was all right, the doctor also said that the risk of a period of time. All the people in the family returned home, only the grandmother left. And other people in the home in the past, it is too late. At this time, grandpa in the morgue, thinking of him in the cold bed...... Grandma said: when grandpa died, his son, daughter did not have one in his side, just say a word. And they were all silent. All too suddenly, thought can be calm, can return to the past...... Second days, my father returned home, the ticket can not buy, I did not go back with my mother. At that time, I was thinking, if I go back to the new year, and then fried bamboo shoots, I fry for whom to eat.

So that year, I didnt go back. Afraid to face, but also can not accept......